apa yg bisa kukatakan……

kalau semua…..akhirnya……blm menjadi kenyataan…

tetap semangat…..!!!….semua bilang begitu…..

better said than done……

 

setelah berkali2 gagal….tetep aja….sakitnya sama….

 

 

 

something…..

lagi seneng nih dengerin lagunya The Beatles yg judulnya Something  ….

musiknya asik…en liriknya itu loh…..liat aja deh :

Something in the way she moves,
Attracts me like no other lover.
Something in the way she woos me.
I don’t want to leave her now,
You know I believe and how.

Somewhere in her smile she knows,
That I don’t need no other lover.
Something in her style that shows me.
I don’t want to leave her now,
You know I believe and how.

You’re asking me will my love grow,
I don’t know, I don’t know.
Stick around, and it may show,
But I don’t know, I don’t know.

Something in the way she knows,
And all I have to do is think of her.
Something in the things she shows me.
I don’t want to leave her now.
You know I believe and how.

mmmm…..kebayang gk sih…..ada someone yg nyanyiin itu buat gw….hik..hik….en gk hy dinyanyin..tpi juga dibuktikan dg perbuatan……

Amin……

jumat kemaren…setelah liburan pemilu…….

jumat kemaren…setelah liburan pemilu…….

very hectic day……di ktr..ya seperti biasa, debet kredit lagi dan lagi….aLHAMDULILLAH masih ada kerjaan….heheheh

bedewey……pas jam 4 sore, ada sms masuk….dr my sister,,,,isinya mengabarkan klo nyokap ke rumah sakit lagi…wekkss….lsg panik ….karena baru kemaren dr rumah sakit…..duh …lsg aja deh minta ijin pulang cepet….

nunggu bis yg ke arah rawamangun…ternyata…niatnya mo plg cepet…….gk bisa….entah kenapa hari itu muacettttttttttttttt…..

akhirnya…..naek taxi bareng temen ktr….di jalan gk tenang……

akhirnya sampe juga di RS. PERSAHABATAN……eh sebelomnya sih beli roti dulu buat my sister en my nyokap…..laper juga …hheheh

sampelah di UGD, penuh bow…en rata2 sakit DBD en Typus…

kl buat nyokap wktu itu masih blm ketauan hasil darahnya…..setelah ngambil hasil, baru ketauan kl positif typus..tpi Alhamdulillah gk usah dirawat…berobat jalan aja….

setelah itu kita pulang en ke apotik dulu tebus obat,….mmm wktu ambil obat ada pemandangan yg bikin gw sedih,,….

ada sepasang suami istri, keliatannya sihpenganten baru…dri obat yg mereka ambil ketauan klo itu vitamin buat hamil muda….ada asam folat, susu anmum……

jadi menghayal….seandainya itu gw……hikss..hiksss………..

yah…gtu deh,….jumat yg melelahkan….tpi melegakan karena nyokap…bisa pulang ke rumah….

again…being over expectation…..

hi…..kangen gk posting…..dah lama ya….

tau2 judulnya mellow lagi…..

lagi2…gw ngelakuin hal yg bodoh….over expectation…..knpa sih nih penyakit dateng lagi,.. dateng lagi….

never do that again dewi!!!…you have old enough to realize it…to do the right thing….never ever over expectation..

ditolak..untuk kesekian kalinya,,,,,brti gw dpt pelajaran lagi….krn gw lom pinter…..

soo naive….i am…..

let him go….

mm…dah lama juga gak posting….b coz nothing new about me……..

langsung aja deh….gw memang sepertinya dan harus bener2 ngelupain nih org….bukan my ex yg dh married itu loh…hehhehehe..klo dia sih….lumayan lupa..wahahhaha…

ini yg laen lagi….hhehe….sampe skrg gak ada tanda2nya dia juga crush on me ya….???….why gtu loh….pa dia gk tau ya what i feel for him….

jadi cewek susah ya,….kl lagi suka ma seseorg ., mau bilang duluan…kesannya agresip….klo nunggu terus katanya pasif….so….klo dua2nya diem…kapan ketemunya???

so….skrg gw mo belajar lupain dia ahh…tanda2nya dia bukan jodoh gw sebenrnya dah ada…cuma gw aja yg gk mo tau…n keras kepalanya gw….masih berharap aja ada keajaiban….hahhahahah…itu mah namanya : ngarep mode on  :p…..

aneh juga ya begitu setianya gw nungguin dia yg gk pasti….apa gw yg kegeeran kali ya….itulah klo shio ular….tau kan sifat ular…..sabar menanti, incarannnya….hheheh….apa over optimis ya…optimis boleh aja neng..tpi y hrs tetep realistis…..

pernah temen bilang ma gw….” udah wie, lupain dia aja….klo mang dia kayak gtu…kans lo ya kecil…utk bersatu “….hiks  sedih gak sih….dibilang gtu….

gk tau juga apa yg bikin gw jatuh hati ma dia…udh lama bgt kenalnya…dan dulu itu gw udh naksir dia, cuma ya….gw tau sih …gw pernah keliatan ma dia…dilirik pun gak…..sadar diri sih gw knpa nya….apalah gw…bner2 ordinary…jauh dari cakep….manis sedikit kali ya gw…hahahhaha….anyway…time goes by….dh lama kita pisah…but….you’re still in my heart…n my soul….hiksss…segitunya gw…..padahal dia pun gak tau apa2 tg ini….klo dipikir2 gw pengecut ya…cuma jadi secret admirer nya dia aja…..berkhayal ..when  we can be together ??…karena kalo dia tau tg ini….gw takut dia malah ngejauhin gw….gw mau keilangan temen hy karena masalah ini…..susah bow cari temen….jadi..yah ginilah….so what am i supposed to do…????

minjem lyric nya lene marlin ahhhh :

You must think, how can this be
You don’t really know me
I can’t tell, this ain’t the time
You’ll never be mine
What can I say, something ’bout my life
I just lost again

udhlah….mati satu tumbuh seribu….klo bukan dia…pasti ada another him….gw yakin….semua akan indah pada waktunya….Amin….

ebiet g. ad says :  ….biar kucumbui bayangmu dan kusandarkan harapanku…….

monday…monday….

senin begini sih enaknya di rumah….hheheh….aneh…giliran masuk pengennya libur….klo kelamaan libur..maunya masuk kerja….mang penyakit deh gak pernah puas….maafkan daku ya Allah…..:P

brkt naek AC P11, setelah sekitar setengah jam menunggu…akhirnya dtg juga…naeklah gw, untung masih kosong jadi bisa milih tmp duduk…., duduk di pojok…maksudnya biar bisa tidur…hihihi…lumayan…setengah jam bobo…pas bangun kan seger…….

saking tidurnya pules apa ac nya yg kelewat dingin, jadi enak bgt tdrnya ( hhehhe,,,kyknya mang tukang tidur aja nih )…bner2 depan slipi gw baru bangun…ckc…ck…..gila ya…..untung gk kelewatan….Alhamdulillah….

yah…klo senin tuh emang bner2 deh…masih hawa liburan,,,..bawaanya,,,ngantuk en boring…kerjaan kayaknya itu2 aja….

butuh tantangan baru nih……what am i supposed to do???????

empty….

last night i dreamed of him again…dunno why…he always on my mind…coz i didn’t plan to be like that….

i know i should let him go….but i can’t help it….

I’m still not over you..

by : richard carpenter

Just today I saw you smile
And it took me back to yesterday
You still move me like you did
When you read me with your eyes that way
Haven’t seen you for a while
Father Time must be a friend of yours
You still take my breath away
Do I really have to say
How much I want you

Just when I thought I was doin’ alright
Sleepin’ away almost half of the night
Now who
Who was the last one I needed to see
Just when I had most of my broken heart
Put back together to make a new start
Now I have to forget startin’ over
I’m still not over you

I was calm as I could be
As the feelings all came back again
What I was supposed to do
Treat you like a stranger or a friend
I’m not wise in things of heart
I’m not one of those who knows the moves
I was hangin’ by a thread
Hangin’ on each word you said
To hear I love you

Just when I thought I was doin’ alright
Sleepin’ away almost half of the night
Now who
Who was the last one I needed to see
Just when I had most of my broken heart
Put back together to make a new start
Now I have to forget startin’ over
I’m still not over you